During the summer, the farmer's market basically gives me an anxiety attack.  There are truckloads of berries and stone fruits, and they are only in season for like a minute and a half.  Because the fruit is so delicious, I am morally obligated to eat as much as I can while the getting is good.  This gives me a false sense of urgency.  Oh my god!  It's here!  Summer fruit!  I have to eat BARRELS of summer fruit OR I HAVE WASTED MY ENTIRE SUMMER!!! (By the way, I remain surprisingly calm during emergencies).
If I don’t buy lots of summer fruit, I feel guilty; so I load up on pluots, peaches and nectarines.  I cart the fruit home, feeling virtuous, and then I don't know what to do.  Should I put the fruit in the fridge?  Or leave it on the counter?  And shit, is this plum already ripe?  Or should I give it a day?  It feels as if there's just a two-hour window for optimal-ripe-but-not-overly-ripeness and that two-hour window always happens during the dead of night. 
And to make matters worse, I always, always, always buy too much summer fruit.  It goes in the produce bin in the bottom of the fridge, and I forget about it.  It ripens, over-ripens, and then languishes for several days until I remember: holy shit, I bought peaches! By then, the fruit is rotten and this makes me feel even more guilty. There are hungry people everywhere, and I can’t bother to eat my peaches. 
It’s a vicious cycle: buy summer fruit because I must celebrate the season; forget to eat pricey summer fruit; feel guilty because I am wasteful; buy more expensive fruit that no one will ever eat; and repeat until the end of summer.  
Now that summer is over, I feel relieved.  I can just buy some bananas because JFC, all I want is a banana.  This afternoon, I ate an apple and you know what?  It was amazing.     
 
 
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